Friday, September 21, 2012

Essaouira-sick


How long, Essaouira...
a place that seems always wrapped in a dreamy haze. A place where everything goes very very slowly.
You ordered a coffee or an orange juice in one of the town's trendiest cafes? well you have to wait. Call the waiter three times, remind him you are there, repeat your order, cause no, it's not a tea you wanted, and in the end maybe you'll get your coffee or you'll have to deal with a tea. You're coming from Europe where things go more or less fast and precise, normally you would complain, but when you get the tea that you never ordered and the waiter smiles at you as if the world was perfect, well you inhale the perfume of the fresh mint, taste your sweet tea, lay back and start to believe the world is perfect, indeed.
After a few days in town, nothing can bother you anymore, for you're so relaxed that you couldn't care less about the surrounding slow motion. You're probably smoking some dope, too, which helps.
I remember these times there, these were made of blinding sun, roofs - day and night views- , beach - not so much on the beach, for the water is always freezing and the wind would slap us with the sand it was raising - , wind, wind, wind blowing so strong and cold at night after the day heat, tiny streets, never ending shops with colorful everything-you-want-to-buy, a port with grilled fish, the smell of sardines, getting lost and finding new streets, nice people, loads but loads of laughter in a cloud of  good quality smoke, laughter till the sunrise on the beach, on a roof, always looking at the sea.
I cherish these memories for I've been very happy everytime I was there.
I usually say that Essaouira is not Morocco, for it has an atmosphere of its own and her people are different.
Someone from there gave me the explanation once.
A friend of mine had invited us one evening to his rooftop that was overlooking the port, and we sat there, talked, smoked one spliff, another one, the stars were shining, and the boat lights in the distance were swaying, my friend was doing the talks and I was laughing my jaws off. We were also eating some biscuits and he was long commenting on their specific crick, crock, crick crock, sound. When I was totally stone I felt the need to confess my inner feeling about the town and whispered in the wind :
"You know, Essaouira is like a little South America (I had never been there by then but I was sure one would feel incredibly good overseas)" to which he answered just as solemnly "You know why the wind blows so strong inhere? It is to tear essaouira off Africa and have it drift away to South America."
Crick, crock, another biscuit was gone, with the wind...And the lights in the distance kept on swaying..
I'm not home-sick, I'm Essaouira-sick...




Monday, September 10, 2012

Hospital tales - Yay! I did it again


Now it's official, we are three. Three people, in two eyes. Doesn't make sense? 
Well someone , somewhere wrote I was a fanatic xenophile, which maybe explains I was meant to gladly welcome strangers not only in my country (ies), in my home(s) but also in my own body to coexist and more, to live together till death make us part. 

The receiving of donor tissue is a quite curious thing. This time, when I was taken to the operation room by this funny guy who was telling me about his testicles operation (?!) they gave me a box and some files to hold in my arms and take with me, which was fine until I read "donor tissue " on the box and asked, horrified, if the box was containing what I thought it was. One nurse laughed and said, "well it's for you, you gotta bring it with you!"  I was feeling really weird to transport in a box the human cornea that was going to be a part of me. Well, I didn't drop the precious treasure, only asked them to put it away from me as soon as we got on site.
There, as usual, I started to get high, and the anesthetist seemed just as high as I was, I can't remember all the stories he was telling but I was laughing out loud. Good stuff you get in operation rooms! 

Waking up was less hilarious, for I was in pain, intermittently crying for more drugs and for food. These people refused to give me anything to eat, which I think, doubled my pain. When I managed to call my sister late afternoon, I was only sobbing that I was going to starve to death and when she told me she could ask the nurses to give me something to eat I (supposedly) said there was absolutely no food to be found in the whole hospital. I received only dinner a bit later, which the nurses called dinner for the hungry wolf; I ate everything, and was still hungry...but I felt better at last.

From the next day on, I was receiving regular internal and external food supplies, from the hospital and from my family, and everything went well, the pains nearly disappeared and the sweet care of these lovely nurses made my stay...how to say that, "almost enjoyable" would be exaggerated regarding the circumstances, but "bearable"  wouldn't be just. Let's just say I could easily forget I was staying in a hospital unit. My stay was shorter than the first time since I seem to recover faster and after only 4 days my eye started to open spontaneously. Hello shiny psychedelic colors! 
After my first transplantation, I saw colors like never before and I thought it was just the effect of recovering normal sight after years of shaded vision. Well now I know it's not just this.  I've already mentioned it feels like looking through water, round edges, slightly blurred vision, with incredibly intense perception of colors. It's beautiful. I wish I could take a photograph of what I see, as I do not have the skills to paint it..Especially since I know this effect will fade while my sight will improve. 

So now we are three, me, and my two guests. I still have a long process in front of me, taking care of the newcomer till he/she feels at ease in his new home, but I'm already excited about all the wonderful things we will see together. Welcome new eyes, welcome brand new world!

Oh and if anyone was wondering how I was typing this a few days after the surgery, well let's say I didn't look much into the screen... or it was my third eye?